A baby smiled at me today

A baby smiled at me today and I wanted to cry.

The baby smiling at me meant so much to me right now. 

I'm struggling with OCD. I have a lot of fears in my heart about my nephews, about kids growing up in the world we are living in. I feel so low and so afraid some days. I'm also struggling with my health and I think about death a lot. To be honest I have fears about something happening to me. I don't want to cause sorrow to my family and friends.

Scrolling on social media is one of the most toxic activites for me. I see reels and posts about accidents, about disease, about a new this and a new that. We're ingesting micro-plastics everyday that are going to cause us to have a stroke or heart attack on the day our arteries and veins are blocked. So don't drink in plastic bottles and we are also breathing in the micro-plastics. There's this cancer-causing element that is found in the ground and that is in pasta, bread and potatoes. 

It is just too much for me. I want to live with joy, just live. Just enjoy life with God. And when it's time to leave this earth, I want to be at peace and die with dignity. I just realized that I won't ever stop living. I will leave this earth and keep living in another world, in another dimension. I will always exist. Thank you Jesus for saving me and granting me Eternal Life. I don't ever want to worry. I don't ever want to be scared to move on and exist in a different world. I give my life to you God and I trust You. 

Thank You for always being present. And Thank You for always being good.

The baby smiling at me today was a message for me. Life is worth living. Jesus is King. Always remain a child before God. Don't worry about the things that are not in your power. Live. Smile. Wonder. Trust. Repeat.

God bless the baby who inspired me to keep going today, who reminded me just by smiling at me that there is joy and happiness in life.